I finally realized how much pain I went through to love you. I will never blame you for my mistakes, but you were the cause of most. I truly loved you with everything I had, so tell me… did you even look to see that? You were my everything, and when you left I had nothing, so I cut myself. Let me just tell you this though. I let you be happy, you are now with another girl who loves you and you tell her you lover her to. So why the hell are you still leading me on. I fucking let you be happy and now I wanna be happy. If i turn out liking a guy please don’t fucking tell me that guy is a douche or not right for me, cause i’ll be the judge of that. I don’t want to sit there and hear that when you are no better than the guy that your making him up to be. I’ve come to realize that nothing matters anymore, and i’m here right now to make myself happy. Not you. I will always be here for you and love you, but if you ever want me back you should know the reason why I will say no.

I hope your happy, Love Jessica